I feel so prostrate now, without you around.
And I’m struggling with my throat to make these feelings sound.
I’m remembering your smell and bringing you to life.
It’s morning outside, but to me it looks like night.
I can’t look at your lips without wondering how they taste.
And every time I kiss you I am still taken by surprise like being shaken awake.
I know every part of your face ‘cause I watch it when you talk.
I know the swing of your arms ‘cause I watch them when you walk.
I never expected this and couldn’t have guessed it from the start,
But you have stolen away every part of my wary heart.

I thank the Lord God Almighty
That all my mistakes and flops are not what define me.
I am screwed up and beat down.
Attempt to smile but I can muster only a frown.
He’s seen it all…
Every one of my fake acts.
Every scarlet red stab in the back.
Every solemn blip in His heart attack.

Dialogues repeat much like the spokes on a rim
Biting and nipping at my heels like dogs with teeth.
Take these walls out of this building.
Deconstruct it down to the framework.
Deconstruct me down to the very bone.
Repent. Repent. Repair.Repair.
This should not be all that I am.
These walls are just deception.
Tear them down. Tear them down.

You have injected all your venom into me.
Advancing into my veins, down to my very feet.
My body went numb.
As I dropped down to my knees.
You have become my personal favorite disease.
Help me. I’m infected.
Purge you out of me.

The grasses are alive, their blades lifted high as knives.
Hello Hollow Stranger, scarecrow packed with roses.
I watched him as he came to life and walked by.
Nailed to his wooden tree, he’s been watching me.
He’s been studying my moves.
Why won’t it rain?
I need the water.
The fields and flowers die faster than I.
And that’s when he’s here. That’s when he comes alive.
Where is my gardener?
Where is my gardener?
Water the ground. Till the earth. Put him to rest.
Put him to rest, back on his wooden tree.
Put him to rest before he gets me.