punching your fist into turquoise-blue wall
to the beat of the same ping pong ball.
swing away til your hand goes numb.
so numb, but do you feel more than i?
cupping that crazy head of yours in trembling hands.
shoes shuffle past giving you not a glance
except for swerving cars while in the street you wildly dance.
trapped in your mind, but are you more free than i?

Let your heart speak to mine
And in time the valves will open wide
In the place between my ribs and spine.

If theres a place I want to be, it’s with you.
And my dreams, behind my eyes, are finally truth.
On shooting stars, my wishes keep coming true.

You dream and watch the frames infinite eyes filled with life.
But you see we are one in the same, watching my brain fall out my ears, as you pick up the pieces and shuffle them away.
Eyelids like rusty hinges awaken. Listen and behold the spectacle. Witness the miracle. And wait for the smile to break your teeth.
Feeding off static and limitless dynamos.
So dream with sheets waving as a banner soprano.

I feel so prostrate now, without you around.
And I’m struggling with my throat to make these feelings sound.
I’m remembering your smell and bringing you to life.
It’s morning outside, but to me it looks like night.
I can’t look at your lips without wondering how they taste.
And every time I kiss you I am still taken by surprise like being shaken awake.
I know every part of your face ‘cause I watch it when you talk.
I know the swing of your arms ‘cause I watch them when you walk.
I never expected this and couldn’t have guessed it from the start,
But you have stolen away every part of my wary heart.

I thank the Lord God Almighty
That all my mistakes and flops are not what define me.
I am screwed up and beat down.
Attempt to smile but I can muster only a frown.
He’s seen it all…
Every one of my fake acts.
Every scarlet red stab in the back.
Every solemn blip in His heart attack.

Dialogues repeat much like the spokes on a rim
Biting and nipping at my heels like dogs with teeth.
Take these walls out of this building.
Deconstruct it down to the framework.
Deconstruct me down to the very bone.
Repent. Repent. Repair.Repair.
This should not be all that I am.
These walls are just deception.
Tear them down. Tear them down.